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Fear and guilt August 27, 2008

Posted by midnightzimadreams in Uncategorized.
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I thought I stared death in the face today. It was my grandmother. She gave us a big scare. It was incredibly difficult to go through. It is amazing what thoughts and emotions can keep flying through your mind when you are on the verge of losing a most important person. You think you know yourself until you experience one of these moments and then you are reminded of how you really react in situations of life and death.

I was saddened by the amount of blame pushing I tried to do in light of my overwhelming fear of loss and my constant guilt of putting her in a potentially jeopardizing situation when I should know better.

How fragile life is. How precious. I guess I am keeping this note purposly vague because it is only intended to help me cope.

Flying with box cutters August 27, 2008

Posted by midnightzimadreams in Life, Superfluous musings.
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I find it ironic that after the “necessary” tightening of security via a complicated system of color-coded alerts, homeland security overarching mandates to infringe on people’s privacy, wireless tapping and domestic spying, and all sorts of other lawless crazy measures instituted by the Bush administration, I somehow, unbeknownst to me, ended up on a plane outbound from San Francisco with a box cutter in my purse. I was in the city for a business trip that included a lot of showcase set up and I had kept a box cutter in my bag most of the week I spent running around opening boxes of signage and giveaways. I took the knife out of my purse and shipped it back to the office in a parcel full of other materials. But apparently I had a second one burried under the planner, wallet, camera, lotion, tissues pack, gum, etc. etc. etc. Going through the security line, I later realized, I also had a nearly full sanitizer bottle hanging from a keychain locked onto my belt. The only thing they did take away from me before I boarded was a plastic bottle with two sips of water left sloshing at the bottom. They asked if I wanted to drink it before I move on from securtiy or else they had to take it away because it wasn’t allowed on board. Hah.

I slept the whole flight through. I was unpacking the following morning when I realized one fo the orange plastic handle box cutters was still tucked way at the bottom of my purse. And then I remebered the full santizer hanging from my pants’ belt. Wow. We pay with our rights and freedoms. We purchase a fake sense of security.

P.S. The 9/11 hijackers used box cutters… ironic, and a little eery. Of all the things to miss in a security scan!

Healthcare: McCain vs. Obama August 27, 2008

Posted by midnightzimadreams in Elections 2008, Healthcare.
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The McCain and Obama healthcare plans are starkly different. Here is an NPR program that helps dig into the details and explains what each plan would do for people, employers, and health insurance companies. The interviewee, Jonathan Oberlander, has authored an article in The New England Journal of Medicine detailing the two plans.